The "me" in "Team"

I'm kind of disappointment with my Relay team. I feel like every one's waiting for me to just spring up and start doing everything and ordering everyone around, not like they'd listen anyway. I don't know, if my one of my friends were in my position then I'd do any and everything to be raising funds for their cause. I know I'm not the center of their world but it would be nice to think that me having cancer again would motivate my team to work extra hard and raise some damn money. But whatever. I probably won't be able to go to Relay this year. I was really looking forward to going this year too since last year it got rained out after all that hard work. I feel so horrible because I'm supposed to be participating in this program called "Heroes of Hope" for cancer patients/survivors who have really made a difference. I was accepted into it but I can't even do half the stuff I'm supposed to be doing cause I'm sick. I really hate using this as an excuse, but it's true. I hope the ACS understands. If I get through treatment I'll be sure to raise as much money as I can for Relay, even if it is by myself.

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