Attempt Number Two

Today I had my second transplant since the first one failed. I had to go through five days of chemo and a day of radiation. The radiation killed my skin it looks and feels weird. I really really really hope these new cells engraft without any complications. This time they used two separate donors to guarantee engraftment I guess. Let's hope it does.

About a half hour ago I fainted. It was really scary because I was in the middle of throwing up. Thank God my mom was there to call for help. When I regained conscious I didn't really remember anything except for asking my mom for a bucket because I knew I was going to vomit. They're not sure if I had seizure or if when I was vomiting I pressed on a certain nerve.

Hopefully I will stay infection free until my counts recover. So I should be home by mid-May... yup around prom time. But my twin brother is going so I'm going to take pictures for me.

Day 40; Two days til failure

Unfortunately, my new cells have not engrafted yet and it's passed the date that most transplantees engraft. So lucky me, I'm part of the 5% who's transplant failed. The next idea is one that I am not a fan of; more chemo, radiation, and other transplant. The doctors said that by day 42 the transplant is considered. I really with all my will and heart don't want to this! I've been here since Feb 12th. I'm really tired of all the shit. What makes it worse is that I'm most likely going to be here for my mommy's birthday.

But the important part is that I made it this far. Hopefully I'll be able to make into remission.