Day +17

Remember how I ended yesterday's post with "sponge bath time?" Well while I was sponge bathing the stupid cleaner walked in on me after I yelled "HOLD ON I'M BATHING." He wasn't the normal cleaner that's usually here, he's what we call a "float." He barely knocked and just barged in. I was really pissed and felt very violated. I'm not sure how much of me he saw but the point is he had no courtesy or respect for my privacy. When I was done bathing my nurse and I walked around the unit while the cleaner cleaned my room. When I got back it looked like my room was barely touched. My bed was unmade and there was still stuff on the floor. This didn't make me any happier. Being sanitary and sterile is a huge part of my treatment and me getting better and for someone to jeopardize that for me because of pure laziness really makes me angry. I know it might not seem like a big deal to you, but it is to me. I really just want my damn privacy and to get better.

Anyway. Today is a little better because my mom is spending the day with me, so I'm not alone and I can boss her around :D.

I'm starting to get back some of my energy back but I still feel miserable and somewhat depressed. But hopefully, with time, those feelings will disappear as well.